Oh, That Giddy Feeling

In less than two weeks, I will formally release Exodus: Book One of The Fundamentalists to the world after 19 years. When I think about it my back gets tight, my spirits lift, and my mind feels like it is about to drop down a 300 foot roller coaster slope.

I admit it. I’m excited and afraid at the same time!

It’s been a long time since I felt like this, perhaps dating back to November of 2007 when I released my first book Now Is Gone.

Yet this one is different. When you vest years of your life sporadically in a creative work spanning three decades, well, let’s just say there’s a little more emotion involved. I think the prior years of blogging and business book writing made me ready for this.

Ironically, I have more fear of the book being successful than failing.

Don’t get me wrong. Will it hurt when critics slam the book? Yes, but I won’t overreact (at least I think). I’ve learned my lessons with past efforts. I was much better about Marketing in the Round criticisms.

Would it suck if the book doesn’t take off? I don’t think so. For me, this is a cathartic publishing experience, the release of a piece work long held within. The effort embraces my true desire to write fiction, not marketing books. No, simply publishing this book is a victory.

Instead my fears wander towards the outcomes of success. Things like possible blow back from the Christian Right, death threats, and all sorts of first world problems that I really have no right to dwell upon. Tor Books is not banging on my door asking for the rights to the whole trilogy. Hell, they don’t even know who I am.

Though the mind dallies, I return to the tasks at hand and focus on the next right thing to bring the book to market. Though that youthful giddy feeling has arrived, it’s about execution now.

Remove expectations, act, and let the results happen as they should. And enjoy the ride. Firsts happen less and less frequently as you get older, and that’s what makes them so special.

Happy Friday!


  • “Remove expectations, act, and let the results happen as they should. And enjoy the ride. Firsts happen less and less frequently as you get older, and that’s what makes them so special.” Well said, Geoff!! Congratulations!

  • Whoa, had no idea you were working on something like this. Putting on my reading list, very intriguing.

  • Selling books is hard. You have a huge advantage over most indie authors in that you have an excellent platform on social media.

    Will you be enrolling it in KDP Select to take advantage of the free days?

    • I decided not to, BUT, I have a couple other tricks up my sleeve to give my core community free access. More shall be revealed. ;)

      • I’m not sure that it the benefit is the same. Yes, you will likely get the same number of reviews from giving away 100? 1000? free copies, but none of those will help with the various ranking lists on Amazon.

        As an example…

        My friend, Judy Leslie, has one book. She is working on book two, but decided to spend the couple hundred dollars to advertise her two days of free through Bookbub.

        She gave away 32,000 copies. The book was just released so each one of those counted as 1/10th of a sale on the popular list after her free day was done. The Popular list sales have the same weight for 30 days, so she had the 3,200 full sales, or, a little over 100 sales per day for an entire month!

        That means she was also on the paid ranking list at around 1,000 without having any more sales. Of course, on her genre lists, she was ranked very high.

        This led to around 100 additional sales per day for an entire month, which kept her ranked really high on her genre list. Each of those sales netted her $2.80.

        If you give away free copies to be nice, it doesn’t help you at all, because you don’t get credit on the lists. Does that make sense?

        If you are worried about Nook, Kobo, and Apple, don’t. Unless you’ve built up a strong platform just for those communities, you’ll be hard pressed to find those readers.

        I’m not saying you shouldn’t give away books to your friends, but it seems a shame to not get credit, rankings, and post free day sales from it.

        Of course, you can always try your idea and if you’re unsatisfied with the results, do the free days and ask all the people who already have the book to download it.

        Note: The people who you give it to, outside of Amazon, won’t be listed as having “purchased” the book. When they write a review it will show they didn’t purchase it. It is a risk having a lot of “not purchased” reviews, because Amazon may flag your account and then delete them.

        Just my two cents worth.

        • I meant delete the reviews, not your account.

        • While I appreciate this, I have yet to release a book that has sold less than 1000 copies, and that was the worse one. I’m not worried about rankings, they don’t mean anything to me. I’m worried about sales.

        • Of course, if I bomb, I’ll know you were right, too. LOL!

          • One of the beauties of being the author and the publisher is that one doesn’t just get one chance to sell.

            My first book, Henry Wood Detective Agency, sold around 150 copies in it’s first couple of month, then about 20 after that. Two years and two weeks after the launch, yesterday, I sold 146 in a 24-hour period from one single ad in an email blast.

            The point is, the book isn’t dead until you quit trying to sell it. In traditional publishing the book is dead when the publisher says “Yeah, we’re not printing anymore. It’s over.”

            As for being right, that isn’t so important to me. What is important is that I did such a poor job of explaining what I meant by rankings and why it was important to generating sales.

            I fear that my second attempt at clarifying what I meant by ranking would be long winded, still, I really want you to succeed and I’d like a chance to discuss it.

            Are you available for a phone call later?

          • Thank God! After three in three years I really need to chill out for a bit on new ones. Great point on it’s not done until I quit.

  • If it truly will not suck for you if the book does not take off..then you can’t possibly fail..It will either be a commercial source of wealth, or a tutelage in book selling. I don’t know the publishers’ version of break a leg, but whatever it is, I wish you that. Bon chance..

    • It already sold more copies than I expected at this point (which is not much). I’d like to break even, but either way it is nice to finally get this thing out. After all this time, I am not afraid to let it see daylight.

  • It is impossible to fail, because you have already succeeded. The book exists. You did it! Cheers! Kaarina

  • I am excited for you.

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